out with the red, in with the blue.

When I decided to transform my dining room into a sitting room/office area my friend Kim suggested cool blue and chocolate brown. Which is exactly what I did. The real name for this paint color is 'fog'. It is hard to tell the true color in this picture, but it truly does look like the color of fog. Once I get the curtains up and a desk in I will send more pics. For now I am pretty happy with it!

surfing the pain.

When I went into labor with Emma I had no idea I would be doing it all without pain meds. It was not supposed to be that way. Luckily for me, I had the best nurse ever, and she taught me how to surf the pain. Each wave was filled with intensity so strong and deep that I could only think about being smothered by it. I thought I would never make it. My life felt as if it were ending, and although I knew realistically I was going to be ok...I had enourmouse doubts about myself during those 45 minutes. Over and over my angel nurse cheered me on, "surf the pain, surf the pain..." . Minutes felt like hours. Each contracting gave and took away my strength.

That day, I saw my soul. The soul you only see when you have pushed yourself far beyond what you think is possible. The soul that nobody else knows. The one that gets you through your hardest moments. I saw that soul. Just for a second. Then the pain was gone. The waves melted away. And a baby cried.

So, tonight, I am thinking about surfing. In the end the biggest waves are the ones that bring the most victory. And I wonder. Will I be strong enough.

seeing pink.

When Kory and I went to the ultrasound on Friday I don't think I have ever been so nervous. I have been a taddd bit high strung the last few weeks. Hum, ya. Partly because I just wanted to know that some of my big concerns about the baby could be put to rest. Partly because life is so busy right now.

I have had more than one dream that this little one was a girl, so I would have been VERY thrown off it it had been a boy. When we finally got to the part when the ultrasound tech tells us what we are having...I got VERY scared. EEPS! All this time telling everyone we ARE having a girl, what if I was wrong??? She typed up on the ultrasound pic, "I'm a Girl!", and then, I knew. 3 for 3. 3 dreams for three kids. All right. I was so excited, and emotional. I don't remember ever dropping tears like that for the other two.
When I got home and told Emma and Hayden, well Emma did cartwheels (really!), and Hayden hung his head and walked away. So, later I explained to him my dream and that I had one for him too. He will come around. His biggest concern is that she will be just like Emma. :) "Double the trouble Mom!"
So today we are seeing pink, and so happy to have this new little Hannah Margaret* join our family the first part of March. How lucky am I?

*Kory picked this name the day I told him we were having another baby. We both really like the nickname Maggie, and come up with it the same weekend - and at different times - so it really has been hard to shake, and keeps coming back to both of us. We will see if the name changes, but for now this is it!

big foot is real and other things I believe.

So what if I believe??

1. Big Foot is real. Joe Sako and I spent over 12 minutes researching this. There have been several sightings in northern Utah. One even at Barker fish farm. That is enough for me. Also, they have a strong odor. What hairy beast that has lived thousands of years wouldn't???


2. Pennies are lucky. Emma and I collect each one we find, Lincoln up or down, and throw it on our path of good luck. Which by the way is veerrrry lucky. One day that path will be lined with lucky pennies that nobody wanted but us.


3. There are two kinds of head colds in this world: A man cold and a woman cold. That is all I want to say about that. I just hope I never get the man head cold.
4. Sting never washes his hair. I actually know this. I read it on E!
5. If you get two stars on the Tootsie Pop it means NOTHING! Don't try and turn it in at
   King's for a free anything. It won't happen. I have tried this. Twice.
6. Love at first sight is very real when you are talking about anything made with chocolate.
7. If you lift your feet, touch a screw, close your eyes and drive over rail road tracks while making a wish of your heart, it won't come true. Also, wishing on stars is marginal. Once when I was seven, and living in a home without sugar, I asked repeatedly for a bag of Jet-Puff marshmallows while wishing on the north star. It never happened. However, I have some in my pantry right now. Bag opened, getting nice and stale. YUM!
8. Numbers are lucky. I have a lucky number. It is not seven.

my kind of week.

The pics explain it all. :)