Saturday, December 20, 2008
Now they ask a special plea for friends and family who know of a birth mother wanting to place her baby for adoption...to please consider them. This couple is near and dear to us...you can find out more about them going to http://jasonandkaylee.blogspot.com/
Friday, December 19, 2008
talk to me while i'm listening.
talk to me while i'm listening.
shopping. working. running.
talk to me while i'm listening.
eliminate the noise. now i can hear.
talk to me... i'm listening.
hope. happiness. love.
understanding. compassion. grace.
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Gala 1 - Friday night Gala at the Estates with my Gram and her new friends. It was....well...luckily Joe Sako was there. His almost grandma Nina was SO nice to Gram. I hope that there is a new friendship there. The food was nice and the people were all great. Honestly though, a little karaoke would have been nice. It would have bumped this Gala into outstanding.
Gala 2 - Giga Gala for my favorite Boss with his favorite managers. This Gala was so much fun, and took place at one of my favorite festive places...Maple Gardens. The thing that was special about this Gala was the fact that we gave our boss some super sweet gifts. Namely "I heart Judge Judy" shirt, and a JAZZ shirt. Fun was had by all. Also, Gina bought my lunch - love that girl.
Gala 3 - Company Meeting Gala. More like a meeting, but because we all got laser pointers it has been escalated to a Gala. Also cookies and cranberry juice were served.
Gala 4 - Girls Gala. I am actually just coming off of this Gala high. It was so much fun. A shout out to Val, Jen, Jessica, Kaylee, Lindee, and Taylor. I got what sounded like a really good item off of the menu, but it turns out it was just a giant block of mozzarella cheese melted and then topped with one single tortilla chip. Otherwise this Gala was tops. So fun. I love these girls and feel so blessed to have wonderful friends at work and beyond! We missed you Gina!
The coming few days will be filled with more Gala's and I can hardly wait.
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
- won anything from the 'claw' game that is inside grocery stores and malls... that looks so so so easy and as it turns out was built by really mean people to make small children cry
- worked with nicer people
- been to visit my gram in her new place...however there is a Gala this friday...
- had a better corn dog than at the fair
- been to lake powell
- gone skydiving (but i wanna!)
- been so happy
- had a beer
- listened to ABBA without dancing
- wanted to go to the beach more than right this second
- let my kids go to bed without a kiss
- strayed from name brand cereal since I moved out of the humphrey's home stead
- played the wii
- eaten potato salad at a work potluck
Sunday, December 7, 2008
The moment usually happens on my way home from work while I am listening to Christmas music. The moment hit me on Thursday on my drive home, and I could hardly contain myself. Saturday we made our yearly trek to get a REAL Christmas tree at one of the fruit stands in Brigham. The tree smells SO good, and is super tall and for sure a Charlie Brown tree. I am especially grateful because we just found out that all my brothers and sisters will be coming home for Christmas. This just adds to my already good mood.
When the feeling finally comes I want it to last all year. Sigh...sugar cookies anyone?
Sunday, November 30, 2008
Friday, November 28, 2008
Thanksgiving is one of my favorite holidays. It is focused on family, giving thanks, and eating. Three of my top favorite things. The highlight of the day was when my mom and dad got out a set of old slides that we had not seen before. There was a magical picture of Jeannie looking right into my mom's eyes just minutes after she was born. We all thought she looked like she was smiling. I am sure I have never seen a baby look that alert and ready to learn in my whole life. There were pics of Toots with her cute face and fly away hair. Of Justin with his PUBS cake, Todd with his lesiure suit, me as a baby, and Darin in a state of happy euphoria that was undeniable. Thanksgiving and every day I am thankful for my siblings, and for the connection we all share. Six kids in eight years means a lot of fighting and a lot of sharing, but in the end after all these years, it also means a lot of understanding.
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Thursday, November 20, 2008
Everyone has layers. They help to shape us, and define how much we want to share with others. I have ten layers. Complicated. Simple. Layered Me.
Layer 1 - I know your name. You know mine.
Layer 2 - You have added me on facebook. I am nice to you. I have never said LY in a IM to you. You don't know that I hate being called skinny.
Layer 3 - We share inside jokes, we have had at least one deep conversation. You like my style. We get along great, but you don't really know me. We share environments.
Layer 4 - You have heard me brag about my family. You have listened as I share stories that are close to my heart. You may have even been in one of those stories. You know that I love to bake, paint, and have a new hobby...photography. You know that running is my new escape, and that I am training for a half marathon. You know my kids are my inspiration and true love in this life. You have looked me in the eyes and truly listened to me.
Layer 5 - You have seen me cry.
Layer 6 - You know the story of the day I left my Grandpa in the hospital...alone...and the regret I still feel to this day. You know that I still think about this often and wish that I had not been so eager to go eat lunch, and instead stayed with him so that he would have not been scared. You know I cry about this each time I hear the song "Song for a Winters Night" by Sarah McLachlan.
Layer 7 - You know my regrets. You know my flaws. You know the pain I have dealt with. You have seen pictures of me from way before the plastic surgeons got a hold of my face. You know the story of how my prom date changed my life forever, and the day I prayed so loud in my head that someone would see beautiful me. And you know how I felt when it happened.
Layer 8 - You have read my book. You know my deepest fears. You know what my love languages are. You have touched and influenced my life beyond what I could ask for. I listen to your advice and admire who you are and everything you stand for.
Layer 9 - You are in my life each and every day. You support and understand all of my decisions. You build me up on days when I am so low I can't see the sun. You jump higher than I do when good news pours down. You are a true friend.
Layer 10- You have seen the best of me. You have seen the worst of me. You still love me.
Monday, November 17, 2008
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
My next big thing(s):
1- finish the book I am writing
2- do a really great oil painting
3- learn how to spell and use 7 big words
1- Spring 2009
2- Jan/Feb 2009
3 - Nov 2008
1- I want to share my story
2- I honestly think I could be pretty good. It is going to be an ocean...surf board...you know a little Jack J flavor. Sigh...I sooo love him!
3- I work around several people with a huge vocabulary, not to mention my siblings...ya, the campfire vocabulary sessions are intense.
Saturday, November 8, 2008
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
That I get to vote
My fun art class!! See pics above...
Sunday, November 2, 2008
hayden carvin away
martha and her sister camille
This weekend started with a fantastic Halloween. Hayden was a Bronco's football player (the boys need to start winning again), and Emma was a witch (a pretty one with purple eyeshadow and mascara which she cried off for a reason that I cannot recall). The kids trick or treated with Kory and then made it home to do do the official count. Kory and I tested all of the best candy for razor blades. I did find an extremely stale kitkat. It was terrible. No child should have to experience that. Emma's cute friend Alvera (87 years old) made her a candy train. It was sa weeeet!!! We love Alvera.
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Well done Philadelphia. Well done.
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
It's morning now on crisp cold mountains
The snow has dusted over tops
And made the crimson golds, and yellows
Shine like polished copper pots
Sweet oh sweet the smell of fall
Drifting down the hills to me
And fresh oh fresh the autumn air
Nature's quiet symphony
Wrinkled stars on frosty earth
A pumpkin here for carving on
Crunchy stars and skating ones
Hundreds huddled on the lawn
My lonely senses autumn fills
Quaffing deep I drink it in
A cherished friend remembers me
Quelling now a blue-gray din
This is autumn as I know best
But better still the years to come
Time will overlap on time
You and I will meld in one
The beauty of earth, of air and sun
As best I know has just begun
Friday, October 24, 2008
So today. Give your best to a child. It could possibly be the biggest investment you make all day.
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Saturday, October 18, 2008
Matt made us all medallions our Senior year - INXS medallions no less- that we all wore to graduation under our grad gowns. Today he is still same great Matt, still making sure everyone feels a part of the group, and never putting anyone down. Matt once gave me a lucky pack o pennies...and there is still a lot of luck left...I am sure of it. He is a happy, healthy, guy who loves his life, his wife, and his three girls. It does not get much better.
Jere can make me laugh even if he is not trying to be funny. I loved being his friend in HS and constantly having a side ache from his funniness. :) On top of that he is an amazing poet, I know this because I have a few deepies from his mish. I loved hearing that he has build a room in his basement to start up art again...so so cool! It was great to see him again.
James propelled me into popularity 18 years ago, and was an answer to my prayer one very important day in 11th grade. He is still far and away one of the biggest and best friends I will ever have. He is an amazing musician, as we all knew he would be... on top of that he could school all of us with his fashion sense.
So 17 years. That is a long time. For a minute though...Friday night felt like 1991...and for a minute everything was the same.
group pic: Jeremy, Scott, Matt, Me, and James
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
He sold me my first guitar. So he could go to a dance with a girl he would one day marry. And then unmarry. He was the leader of our rebels group when we were all 15, which in reality, had nothing to do with being rebellious and everything to do with friendship. He wanted to put an end to gossip, and complaining, and for awhile he did. He was Moose. He made us all sing 'Happy Trails to You' each summer night before we left those neighborhood streets to go our own way home. He was my first unofficial date. Big Fries. He was the life of our party.
When his sister died I went to her funeral and I saw him... this best friend of growing up, of years of sharing the same block, the same friends, the same sunday school class. He gave me a cheek hug. I felt sad deep into my heart and back again. I wanted to tell this friend how sorry I was for his loss. But I didn't. I would change that day. That day I bought the card for him that I was going to write my words in. The words that would make him know that I cared. This friend of mine that took me rabbit hunting and on bike rides. What would you change if you could?
He died three months later. What would you change if you could? I still had his blank card. I would change that day. Maybe if I listened real hard I could hear him. I listened, and I did. He wanted a favor, and he knew I was listening. I don't know if it was him or me, but somewhere I heard Mike telling me to please do this one last thing for him... to send his mom 6 yellow roses. Roses that would be delivered on a day when her tears fell heavy. She was listening too, and she heard him.
Six unforgetable yellow roses straight from heaven. That day I would not change.