Everyone has layers. They help to shape us, and define how much we want to share with others. I have ten layers. Complicated. Simple. Layered Me.
Layer 1 - I know your name. You know mine.
Layer 2 - You have added me on facebook. I am nice to you. I have never said LY in a IM to you. You don't know that I hate being called skinny.
Layer 3 - We share inside jokes, we have had at least one deep conversation. You like my style. We get along great, but you don't really know me. We share environments.
Layer 4 - You have heard me brag about my family. You have listened as I share stories that are close to my heart. You may have even been in one of those stories. You know that I love to bake, paint, and have a new hobby...photography. You know that running is my new escape, and that I am training for a half marathon. You know my kids are my inspiration and true love in this life. You have looked me in the eyes and truly listened to me.
Layer 5 - You have seen me cry.
Layer 6 - You know the story of the day I left my Grandpa in the hospital...alone...and the regret I still feel to this day. You know that I still think about this often and wish that I had not been so eager to go eat lunch, and instead stayed with him so that he would have not been scared. You know I cry about this each time I hear the song "Song for a Winters Night" by Sarah McLachlan.
Layer 7 - You know my regrets. You know my flaws. You know the pain I have dealt with. You have seen pictures of me from way before the plastic surgeons got a hold of my face. You know the story of how my prom date changed my life forever, and the day I prayed so loud in my head that someone would see beautiful me. And you know how I felt when it happened.
Layer 8 - You have read my book. You know my deepest fears. You know what my love languages are. You have touched and influenced my life beyond what I could ask for. I listen to your advice and admire who you are and everything you stand for.
Layer 9 - You are in my life each and every day. You support and understand all of my decisions. You build me up on days when I am so low I can't see the sun. You jump higher than I do when good news pours down. You are a true friend.
Layer 10- You have seen the best of me. You have seen the worst of me. You still love me.